so do you really KNOW?…

please indulge me in a little soul spew here.

I have a story, I’m living in it. I’m adding my story to God’s. I join with others on the eternal journey who have gone before, who are now and who will be to come The never ending dance and our stories join together and we share them. We serve and love together living in the tension of distinct personalities and opinions, matters of conscience and matters of preference.

We live in faith communities together trying to live well in that same tension. Tony Jones quoted a friend who called it the “paradoxy” - living well in the paradoxical places. I don’t believe anyone on this earth had or has it all right…not in doxis or praxis or ecclesiology or missiology or christology or eschatology…And while I believe we all can do our best to live close to the heart of God as individuals and within our communities, and while we can say “this is best for me at this season”, none of us has the understanding to fully rightfully judge the “true” or “perfect” doctrine or church for all people in all times.

We, all of us, see dimly. Even the desert fathers and mothers and indeed all the Church leaders back to the first have had the humility to profess their doubts, to express that they may find when they fall at God’s feet that they had many things very very wrong.

We are flawed, fallen and ultimately and totally reliant on God’s grace…no matter our “brand” of Christianity. To claim to not have doubts, to always be 100% sure of everything regarding God and faith and doctrine is to claim to be god…or at the least it’s dishonest. And all of this leads me where I am now. Broken, soul sick and in desperate need of the Divine to intervene and intercede on my behalf.